Posted in: Post Lung Cancer
Today I was going to blog about peace. The world is a mess, CA is a mess, my finances are a mess, my body is handicapped, and yet I have peace. I want you to have peace. I ready one of my daily devotions and it was about peace - and I couldn’t write it any better.
TODAY’S SCRIPTURE
“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid”
(John 14:27, NLT).
TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria
Did you know that nothing on earth can take away your peace and joy? That’s because it didn’t come from this world, it came from God Almighty. In fact, the only time we can ever lose our peace is when we choose to let go of it and give it away. The next time you’re tempted to get upset and frustrated ask yourself, “Is this worth giving my peace and power away?” Maybe someone was rude to you on the phone, or a co-worker left you out of a meeting, is it worth your peace?
Life is too short to live upset and offended. If you allow your circumstances to control you, there will always be some reason to get discouraged. “Well, Joel. It’s the economy.” “It’s the stock market. That’s why I’m so down.” No, quit giving away your power! God is still on the throne. The economy in heaven is doing just fine, and as long as you’re connected to Him, everything is going to be alright! Decide today to hold on to the gift of peace that God has given you so you can move forward in the victory He has in store for you!
Posted in: Post Lung Cancer
So, I may not have any sensory nerve endings working, but I can do most things if I just watch my fingers or feet. Now that I hive doubled my pain meds - I AM TYPING WITH MY FINGERS!!!! Yes, it’s still harder and slower because my finger tips can’t feel the keys - therefore many miss typed letters - but if I don’t look at the monitor, but watch my fingers the whole time, I can type 
See, it’s all good!!!!
Sometimes, God shuts a door, or allows the earth’s sickness or sin get in your way, but we need to have faith in His big picture! I’m typing starring at my fingers. Best case scenario - no - but God gives us what we need to do what He needs us to do. He has/will equip you with the skills, talents, and the “ways”. Will we know why it has to be this way - maybe not. I just rather not live in the “what if” or “why me” and stress, worry or be anxious over things I can’t control. Instead for me, it’s much easier to allow God to be in charge - and roll with the bunches - “it is what it is” - and know that “what is” is designed by God. To me it may not seem like the perfect plan, but that’s ok, I don’t have the crystal ball - My GOD DOES!
Live to today like it is your last - be in the moment - thank GOD for this day - know you are blessed - feel God’s strength, love, peace, hope - it’s all yours - a free gift - you just have to take it
Posted in: Post Lung Cancer
I saw a neurologist today. It was fun First she played games with my toes, feet, fingers, and hands. I wasn’t allowed to look and I was to tell her what she was moving and what direction. I flunked most of the game. Then she had me walk for her and do other moves.
Next, she did a nerve conductor test. She gave me electric shocks up and down my legs, feet, toes, arms, hands, and fingers. It didn’t hurt but sure didn’t feel good.
The last test was using thin needles- yes needles. She poked me in several places up and down while I moved in certain directions. At least this test made me know acupuncture is NOT for me.
Results. My motor nerve system is 100% PERFECT! No damage! My sensory nerve system is 100% damaged. As she put it, “my brain has no idea I even have feet or hands.”
So where do we go from here? The chemo, she feels, didn’t cause this since it’s getting worse. However, Lung and Breast Cancer can leave benign tumors in the blood (I think that is what she said). We are doing extensive blood tests - tests that wouldn’t have been needed for cancer. Even with the results, it’s a waiting and praying game.
For the pain, I have doubled my pills - taking me to 800mg. In two week I can go to 1200mg if needee and can continue to work up until 2700 mg. That should help.
You know as much as I do now. It’s not good or bad I guess - but it’s at least proof that I’m not crazy!