Hello, 5 feet 4 inches is short.  I’ve always wanted to be taller (ok, and slender) but it is what it is I’m not going to grow.  Therefore, I have ALWAYS worn heels - to work, to go out, and yes, even to play - like Disneyland.  I am a natural in heels - run, skip, hop and jump.

Now, has vanity crossed the line? I’m sitting here today trying to get used to heels.  I’m going to my birth daughter’s baby shower and would like to feel good about myself.  TOO FUNNY, since my brain doesn’t know I have feet, or feet on 3 inch extentions, I can’t walk.  I look like I have ice skates or rollar blades on for the first time.  I wobble and I will fall down.  So, do I give up and wear flats and accept God’s creation the way I am, 5 feet 4 inches, or do I practice with heels?

Sorry- you were expecting me to say accept how God made me didn’t you?  Well, this time I’m going to practice with heels and give myself some more time Come April 5th, the day of the shower, I’ll make the decision.  I rather be short than fall over and land in someone’s food - lol. I’ll leave you with this cliff hanger and I’ll let you know what I do later.

How does one handle having a “new me”? My earthly body as I once knew it is no more.  My current earthly body doesn’t seem to be a “step up or newer version”, but an older tired version.  My capabilities are not the same.  The “easiness” of movement and functionality is lacking to say the least.  So, how do I handle this “new me”?

I have hundreds of people praying that God will heal me fully and for that I am grateful.  It amazes me of the support and love that I have.  I love you all.  However, all hundreds of you prayed that I wouldn’t have breast or lung cancer and I did.

The medical world - at this point - says that there is nothing they can do but wait.  That puts it right back into God’s corner - will He or won’t He heal me?

So again I ask, “how do I handle the ‘new me’”?  I am optimist that IF God wants me healed He will do so.  However against some of your advice, I am also living in the now and today’s reality.  God may not.  So, isn’t it only right for me to accept and move on?  Isn’t it the “smart thing” to learn to do as much as I can with the limitations I have?  I think so!  It’s not less faith and it’s not “giving  in”.

I feel, for me, the answer is to do what the Bible tells me to do and that is LIVE TODAY and let tomorrow be God’s concern.  Today, right this second, I don’t have any sensory nerve signals going from brain to hands or knees down.  So today, how will I accomplish the purpose God has given me?  That is my only concern or care.  I have begun to learn to compensate for this new body and every day I have been able to “do more”.  Today, God has laid on my heart what He wants me to accomplish and I will accomplish it with the skills, talents, and body God has given me for today.   For if something comes up that I am not equipped for, that is when God will step in and cover for me.

To me, what God is showing me, is to NOT live with the mind set that “God will heal me soon”… “This is temporary”… “the doctors will figure this out”… or just allow myself to dream and know that “this too shall pass” … but the mind set that God knows my today and I am how I am today … tomorrow is tomorrow and when tomorrow becomes today, that is when I will deal/think about it :)  To me, that is faith!!

So … not to say don’t keep praying … but know that I’m ok living in today’s reality! God has this covered and all is good for HIS glory!

Ok - God showered me with a HUGE gift today - something I have been praying about for MONTHS! My “fake” boob was a hand-me-down 4 years ago. It was more than dying - it was separating - and just had no form.  I knew I couldn’t spend $300-$400 on a new boob.

Today, I went to our breast cancer support group building to volunteer to make a display board they need next month.  In conversation, I found out we now have some hand-me-down boobs and I GOT A NEW BOOB! Yes, it’s lighter, perfect shape, and new.

I bet you never prayed for a boob before.  Well, it’s true, God cares about the little stuff and He can give you the desires of your heart