I’ve had the “new” blood in me now for 4 days.  Somethings changed and some did not.

Things blood changed: I’m not getting the carnival dizzy spells.  I’m still light headed if I over-do or move too quickly - but the world isn’t spinning - THANK YOU JESUS!  I also feel that I’m a little warmer (not personality but body temp - lol).  Before, 4 blankets couldn’t get my “insides” warm and now I don’t always have blanket on.  Of course I never do when the heat flashes come.  So, maybe with the oxygen in this new blood, my blood is thicker and keeping me warmer.  Now, that doesn’t mean I should give up my new addiction of Hot Chocolate before bedtime.

Things blood did NOT change: My legs are still very weak.  I still use the walker for longer distance and balance.  My hands and knees down are completely numb and tingling - the sensation of waking up after being a sleep - and I have this 24/7.  I still tire easily.  Love those afternoon naps and early bedtime.  I was hoping that the new blood would just bring me straight back to “normal” but I’m learning to except and appreciate the positive changes and know that the other side effects will change in due time.

Other changes not blood associated:  I HAVE A 3 O’CLOCK SHADOW - you can see my hairline.  I’m not sure you’d call it “hair” - no anxiety of a “bad hair day” yet - but I do have a hairline and shadow on my head.  I’m not squeaky bald where you need sunglasses!

That’s really all the medical change going on here.  The spiritual change… I was reminded today by one of my Pastors that taught me for 15 years - Bill Hybills from Willow Creek - the importance of the God’s Whisper.  How many times do we say God doesn’t talk to us anymore - then we hear that “whisper” and ignore it?  I think I have done that a lot lately.

I have been living my own world - feeling I had “the right” since all I have been going through and I have ignored God’s whispers.  During these past months, God has whispered to me that I have to find more understanding for those who “don’t get what I’m going through”.  A couple people needed to “hide” during this because they couldn’t face the possibility of my death.  They needed to care from a distance or be silent.  They offered to be there but their busy lives got in the way.  Life happened - and I didn’t take time to understand that FOR THEM - I was too focused on ME - not a good place to be even if you are going through a rough time. (NOTE: God had me taken care of - 99.99% of you were able/willing to play an active role in my journey - but see how my “human heart” wasn’t able to have understanding for that small .01%)

God whispered to me today that I have to understand (or try) where everyone was coming from and LOVE THEM unconditionally and feel blessed with how they did handle the past months.  Lord knows, (literally), how many times I allowed my life to get in the way of helping or being there for others.  Lord knows, (literally), how many times I didn’t want to face someone else’s problem so I walked.  Lord knows, (literally), how many times I had great intentions but no follow up.  At my class I taught this week for some men in a sober living home I taught them that we can’t expect others to be “perfect” and ask them to accept us as “humans”.  I think that is what God is whispering to me today and I am choosing to hear it!!

This week, I want to see the needs and hurts of others - and stop being focused on my needs and hurts.  This week, I want to find the blessings that others give to me and THANK THEM - ENCOURAGE THEM to keep giving in the way they can.  This week, I want to live in the “Attitude of Gratitude”.  This week, I follow God’s whisper for my life - and I LOVE OTHERS the way HE LOVES ME!

I challenge you all to listen to God’s whisper this week and follow it!  It’s the season to take the leap of faith and give our “all” to GOD to do as HE pleases for HIS KINGDOM!

I love you all - and appreciate you all!

1. Thanks for sharing.

   Comment by Tasha — December 14, 2008 @ 12:48 pm

2. Another “Preach it sister!” WOW! VERY INSPIRING!!!

   Comment by Kari — December 14, 2008 @ 1:38 pm

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