Well, it appears that unlike Breast cancer chemo, this lung chemo gives you the fun experience of a “different” reaction or waking up time each cycle.  You don’t have the, “on this day I’ll feel like this”.  That is hard.  Last cancer experience, I could at least still schedule my life because the recovery was always the same.  Could God need me to be even more “go with the flow”?

I had a fun chemo week.  My birth daughter Meredith came to be with me and to play mom for my family.  She was a HUGE GIFT!  I really don’t think we would have made it if she wasn’t here helping.  Our church had the long awaited Grand Opening for our new building.  Lon went to the church Tuesday to work on setting up sound and I don’t think he was home more than 10 hours from Tuesday to Sunday.  So, to have Meredith here to help with the kids was great.  She became the “bus driver”, the “homework supervisor”, the chef, the nurse for me, the social coordinator (she taught us a new card game HANDS AND FOOT and we love it), and the cleaning lady (literally).  No words can thank her enough for keeping my house running - which allowed me to only worry about me (felt selfish but made life easier).

As far as my recovery time - it was different.  I tried to walk and eat so the “rough time” hit later - Sunday and Sunday night were the worse time with the “bathroom floor experiences” etc.  The rest of this week, my legs are like noodles and the taste in my mouth makes ALL food sounds terrible.  It’s hard when you know you need to eat, but the thought of the taste mixed with the taste already in your mouth makes you think you’ll loose all of your cookies (and yes, even if this time I did NOT want chocolate or sweets so you know the taste was bad).  I didn’t get a “fuzzy mind” so that was refreshing.

I did have a new attitude though even during the roughest time - I AM REMARKABLY REDUCED - so just knowing the chemo is working makes you mind it a little less.  I only have 2 more cycles and it feels like it is doable.  I’m thinking of it as only ONE MORE MONTH - my last chemo is Oct 31st.  I’ll be a bald toxic skeleton for Halloween - lol.

I’m actually going to try to go shower and go teach one parenting class this morning.  Bills keep coming in and working less makes me try to push anytime I can teach. Plus, I’m teaching the men and they treat me like I’m fragile - it’s really endearing.  So, God is good!  Life moves forward! The future is bright!

My lesson this week: I was going to try to get Meredith to reschedule her flight.  She had just gone through hurricane IKE, I would not be fun, it would be work for her.  GOD’S plan and timing again was perfect!  We needed her - she enjoyed (she says) being there for us - and chemo could not have been more fun or fast playing cards with her.  ALLOW GOD TO BE IN CONTROL … He’ll never let you down!!!!

1. You have a loving and pure heart toward God and his plan for you. This combined with your understanding that you are his servant allows you to place yourself in His loving hands. He will never fail to guide and protect his children. You are a REMARKABLE example of a trusting child. Love you.

   Comment by Jan — September 26, 2008 @ 7:37 pm

2. Donna,

   I was just reading in Luke 9:57ff. Pleaple are willing to follow Jesus as soon as they take care of their unfinished business. Jesus responds that we can’t look back. I think you get it. Thanks for showing me. Love ya,
   Caren

   Comment by Caren — October 2, 2008 @ 4:45 am

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