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1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8 pieces of hair I counted on my hand after shampooing. How many pieces of hair do you normally use a day when you shampoo? I don’t have an answer for me and I wish I did. I know that I loose a few pieces every day. Was the 8 pieces more than normal? Less? Average? Obviously, the big reason I would love that answer is because with this chemo I have been told I “may” loose my hair – most likely – but I was just given a “may”. With the chemo I had for breast cancer 3 years ago, there wasn’t a “may” it was a “for sure”. Now, I’m not dreading being bald (there are some very good things about being bald in Bakersfield’s 3 digit summers) – it’s just the unknown – will it or won’t it fall out?!?!
Well, just like last time, this question about how many hairs fall out daily – normally – or from chemo – instantly takes me to Matthew 10:30 (Message), “He pays even greater attention to you, down to the last detail–even numbering the hairs on your head!”
WOW – HOW AMAZING IS THAT ONE SENTENCE! He, GOD (the CREATOR of the universe, the Alpha and Omega, our Provider, Infinite, Omniscient, Omnipotent, Omnipresent, Holy, Almighty, Love, Grace etc. etc.) knows how many hairs are currently – at this very second – on my head. The kid in me almost wants to pluck out a piece of hair out and look up to the sky and say, “Did you get that one”? Seriously, don’t you!! Can your brain really grasp that at ever second your GOD – your HEAVENLY DADDY – knows how many hairs you have! I can see a commercial, “Can you tell me now?”
I find 2 HUGE lessons (or ideas for me to ponder) for this verse – ok 3. The first lesson, is wow, I have a very small brain since I can’t even grasp that someone would know me well enough to know OR CARE how many hairs I have on my head. The 2nd lesson is God has such an intimate relationship with me – He knows how many hairs I have – how intimate do I know Him? The 3rd lesson or question is this, if God knows me that well, why do I still think I can hide things from Him, or I shouldn’t go to Him with some of my thoughts or feelings or desires because they are “too insignificant” for a big God?
Seriously, we mess up our lives so often, take the “hard road” so often, skip the valuable lessons so often, because we are so wrapped up in not allowing ourselves to understand how much God loves us and knows us and wants to do for us! We start thinking for God. “Oh, He’s too busy to worry about my finances even though we have no food and only have $10 to my name”. “God is too busy to worry about my job, health, friendship, marriage, kids etc.”. “God gave me the brains to figure this out so I won’t bother Him.” “God has world peace to worry about so how can I bring up this small matter to Him.” Aren’t we all a little too big for our britches to be deciding FOR GOD what He cares about or not?!?!
REALLY. This hits me like a ton of bricks! This is like 100 light bulbs were just turned on. WHO DO I THINK I AM THAT I HAVE THE RIGHT TO THINK FOR GOD?!?!?! The statement of this verse, “He pays even greater attention to you, down to the last detail–even numbering the hairs on your head!” would suggest the OPPOSITE! God’s intent is to be so involved, so intimate, that you could never ask Him, “how many” and He would not be able to answer with the correct number!!!!
Ok … I have to admit… I don’t always treat my relationship with God like I have that information. I don’t approach God knowing how intimate of a relationship we have. I don’t approach God with the intent of giving my “all” not because I can gain but because that is HIS DESIRE. I don’t always approach God with the same desire to know EVERYTHING about Him. Would you ever have thought that such an almost funny verse “He knows how many hairs” could take us back like this – make us do some serious heart and life checks.
This blog could go on and on because this is SO powerful. I think though instead of just rambling on, I need to take a quiet time and talk to my Heavenly Daddy with the respect that He deserves – He loves me enough to know how many hairs I have!!! Then, since He did create my humor, and me, I just may have to pluck a hair or two and play the “And now game” to give Him a good laugh! REMEMBER WHO YOUR GOD IS NEXT TIME YOU TALK WITH HIM!
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Well, I don’t know what kind of hair you have, but mine is presently brown, long, and pretty curly. Thus I don’t brush it when it is dry unless I want a SUPER frizzy hairdo. So, when I brush my hair after a shower I’m always stunned that I still have any hair left. I loose tons of hair to my brush and the bathtub drain daily.
Thanks for the reminder that it’s not my “job” to think for God. He hasn’t stepped off His thrown and begun to wring His hands in worry. No, He is still God, and thankfully I’m not.
Comment by Tasha — July 27, 2008 @ 5:16 pm
WOW! Wonderful insight yet again! I can tell you that I “freak out” when I lose more than a few hairs in the shower. I remember calling my sister & asking her if it’s “normal”. Turns out, certain times in our lives, it is! I can’t imagine what it’s like to wake up every day wondering if “today’s the day”. I know, hair’s not important. But, just the not knowing. Know what I mean?
I have to share my reality check for the day. Mine was that I AM truly blessed beyond measure. My husband helps once a month at church to deliver furniture to Madison-area people who have requested assistance from our church. Today, he delivered in an area not all that far from us. The difference between where we live & where they live is night & day. Truly, night and day.
But, the even sadder thing was that he visited a woman who was totally blind in one eye & nearly blind in another. Why? For 4 years she has been with a man who beats her. He is now incarcerated. She has resources to leave, but, won’t. She lives a life I cannot fathom. Honestly, my life is tough at times. I have gone through some trials. But, I’m so secure in many things. Above all else, I have Jesus. I mean, WOW! My heart aches for her & those just like her.
Comment by Kari — July 27, 2008 @ 5:52 pm