So, the real question is how to live during your BIG SCANS WEEK. I don’t really think about it all the time - just at the yearly BIG SCANS week It’s the week you tell yourself a million times that the cancer has not returned. It’s the week you catch yourself a million times sneaking a “what if” scenario. It’s the week you PRAISE GOD because you made it another year cancer free. It’s the week you PRAY TO GOD asking Him that you could continue to be cancer free. It’s the week you spend all your waking moments praying for those friends that lived through their BIG SCANS week only to hear the words “it’s returned” whether they have been cancer free for a year or 17 years! It’s the week you realize once again that someday you WILL die - whether cancer takes you or something else. It’s the week you do a lot of soul searching trying to figure out if you lived the last year to it’s fullest - reaching the purpose God intended for you to reach. It’s the week that can give you the results you dream for or the results that will put your life upside down. It’s the week that on the surface you live like any other week and inside you are a different person - preoccupied and wishing someone would notice and give you support - but then you don’t want support because you don’t want people to know that you “worry” about the cancer. So, how do you live through the BIG SCANS week? One second at a time - staying in that moment - and trying your hardest not to look to the next second I have completed my CT SCAN, my PET SCAN, my BONE SCAN is tomorrow, and my MAMMOGRAM is Friday - on June 5th, I’ll hear my doctor say, “and the envelope please …. the cancer free award OR the returning cancer award goes to DONNA!”