Yesterday was a hard day. Although Lon and I never loose faith, we do get tired of our money - or lack of situation. Lon had an incredible month last month - Praise God. This month is the opposite. Jobs are falling through or non-existent. You wonder what’s up. We try to hold not let the anxiety come in - we know God is in control and will provide our needs - but you wonder if we are supposed to be doing something different. It’s hard because we have peace that we are walking in God’s will for our lives.

Anyway, when we are down God does take care of us through our 2 ANGELS! We have 2 secret Angels that just seem to know what day to strike. We open our front door and POOF there is food and goodies. It more than brings a smile to our face, it brings peace to our hearts. For we have someone that loves us and is looking out for us!

I hope to find out who these Angels are, but if not, God will bless them for the blessing they are to us!!!

I pray that I learn from my Angels and I look for ways that I can bless those around me. We all have bad days - days that seem like the world is too big for us. It’s our jobs to be Angels to others - to help them keep the faith and see the vision for why we are on this earth. My Angels get this - they are showing God’s love to me and my family!

WE LOVE YOU MY SPECIAL ANGELS!

Because of all of you, I have COMPLETED my chemo treatments! THANK YOU for your love and support and prayers.

The side effects are not being nice to me already - very fatigued, mouth sores starting, and painful bones. The positive side, this is the last week I have to feel like this - YEAH!

I get most of the summer off to feel “normal” and then I’ll start radiation the last part of August.

Ok, the brain isn’t working well, the body is hurting and I need to make this short!

I love you all - WE MADE IT!!!!!!

I cannot even begin to tell you how strange I feel right now. It’s after 11pm and I don’t want to go to bed - I don’t want to wake up tomorrow morning. Tomorrow is my 8th and last chemo. You would think that I couldn’t get to tomorrow quick enough - it’s over - after dealing with this treatment and side effects I can go back to normal living. I should be dancing on clouds.

Instead, I’m literally in tears tonight. I am SAD that tomorrow will be it! Lon says it’s because I don’t like change - and Lon knows me well. I have been going to the cancer center every Monday for 6 months. I think that is probably a part of it, but it’s so much deeper.

I think the problem is GOD PROVIDED ALL OF MY NEEDS! You see, I didn’t spend 6 months in a cold hospital like place. I didn’t spend 6 months with nurses that never learned my name. I didn’t spend 6 months where no one cared about me, if I was doing all right, or what my future could hold for me. NO, I spent 6 months with God’s own “Chemo Angels”. From the girls that took my blood each week, to the girls that gave me my injections weekly, to my “chemo angel nurses”, I was given love, compassion, friendship, laughter, smiles, hope and joy. I ENJOYED my time with the people at the center. I felt special and important. They all fussed over me and treated my like a princess. They made me feel like my future was as important to them as it is to me. They made me feel safe - that I was a survivor and always will be!! They became my family - a place where I belong!

It will be a change because I won’t see my new friends except once a month to get my port flushed out. When I begin radiation at the end of August, I’ll have a new set of “radiation angels”. I can always visit the chemo wing and I can tell you right now I WILL.

I feel so totally blessed for having been a patient at CBCC! I’d like to say it was almost worth having cancer (almost). As sad as I am, and as scared to actually go have my last treatment, I will hold on to the GIFT that GOD gave me through the WILLINGNESS of the GIRLS at CBCC who allowed GOD’S LOVE shine through THEM!

I leave with a challenge for myself and all of you… are you allowing GOD to use YOU to show that much genuine love to someone in need? Where would I be now if all of my nurses etc. didn’t give their all? I want to be to someone what my nurses are to me!

That’s my prayer - they are my inspiration - they are my example - now may I go be God’s Angel to someone else and pass on God’s love!